###mar 25 dreamt that I was at build a bear and I knew the person working and they were going to give me a really good deal if I signed up for the rewards program. I was buying a lion and picking cute clothes for it. signing up for the rewards turned into a whole ordeal that required me to do all these tasks and assessments. I was running late to go to church with my family for christmas or some holiday. I kept telling them I had to leave and the employee was like it will just take a second more. I end up in my high school parking lot with the build a bear employee, like one of the tasks required me to drive there. I was super late and needed to leave. My bro sent me a text saying my dad was super pissed and concerned for my wellbeing. when I GPS'd the church, my phone map was just showing maps of Sydney, Australia so I had to wing it. I ended up at my stepbro's house and met his gf. It made me feel better that he wasn't at church yet and he said we could just sneak in the back and say we were there the whole time. ###mar 18 dreamt that I was kicked by an ostrich that I was trying to contain for work (?) and everyone was like well it's a small ostrich so it's actually not harmful, but it was really scary ###mar17 dreamt that I was in a survivor style, two tribe competition to write the best grad school application. it was all of nothing so whoever wrote the best essay, their entire team would be accepted into grad school. my team lost and I was really downtrodden by it. and then someone was like why don't you just apply individually to grad school... ###feb 22 nightmare that i was pregnant and couldn't get an abortion bc it's illegal where i live ahhhh too real! ###Feb 14 weird dream about someone from my past. they had transitioned to female which was cool. i was really wanting to reconnect but could tell she didn't want to as much. i asked her age trying to figure out if our relationship when i was 17 was appropriate or not ###nov 13 I was at the zoo and the big cats kept getting out of their cages. at first I was trying to be chill about it because people around didn't seem to care but then one bit me. my cats were also there and I was scared they would get attacked. I had to get a zoo worker to put them back in their cages ###oct 27 nightmare-ish dream that I had to work at the French bakery I used to work at in highschool (in real life). But the bakery was in a mall food court. I've had the same premise of this dream before, the bakery was also in a food court then. I had to get there super early and it was crazy busy with a ton of people working behind the counter, it was very stressful. After my shift I decided I would work there for two weeks and then quit and look for another job. Later I was at my parent's house for dinner, treeprophet was there. My stepmom was serving everyone food and then she was like "oh sorry there's not enough for you to have any" and I asked if other people could just share some of their food and she had a weird, illogical reason why they couldn't. I started crying at the dinner table but no one gave me food still. Later I had to go somewhere with treeprophet and my brothers' girlfriends. I was in a horrible mood and treeprophet was like you seem off? and I was like yeah I'm working this terrible job and no one would give me food at dinner :( ###oct 26 dreamt that I was a kindergarten teacher and it was my first day teaching. I was nervous but at first all my students were behaving well and they all introduced themselves to the class. as the day went on it felt like I was herding cats. I kept getting scared that they were going to leave the classroom or climb out an open window. one of them pooped on a table and I had to clean it up. ###april 26 dreamt that i had to move to KC with treeprophet. I was so upset about it and did not want to move. i was working part time at the kc botanical garden and i had the same boss that i do now. i also worked part time at trader jo's. the whole dream i was meeting new people and starting my jobs but i couldnt stop crying in every interaction i had bc i was so sad that i had moved. im sure this has nothing to do with my close friends moving away soon hahaha ###april 25 I was staying in a hotel with my family for my brothers wedding rehearsal. When I left the hotel room, the light outside was blinding, like when you are in a dark room for awhile and walk outside. The whole dream I was trying to recover my sight but it was still partially impaired. There were monsters (Zelda inspired) roaming the halls of the hotel and I was struggling to try to get around and avoid them. I finally saw my brother and he was taking to me about wedding planning. He was like “(wife’s name) is great but she’s also like, horns out maybe 45% of the time” I interpreted that to mean she was aggressive. I had to give a speech at the rehearsal and I was trying to think of something genuine to say to support my brother. ###april 7 dreamt that i was moving out of this gigantic house. another person had just moved in and she was really nice and fun and i was sad that we weren't going to get to live together for long. my parents and brothers were there to help me move. i had to complete all these weird checklists before i moved. the house was in a different country so it was like some weird legal stuff? we were leaving a lot of stuff behind but i didn't feel bad bc there was a lot of stuff already there when we moved in. it was a big shared house that many people moved in and out of, like an apartment complex but all one house. we left the fridge full of food. ###april 3 dreamt that i came to work on monday and there was 300 email to respond to and my coworker was like, there were 1000 yesterday and i got it down to 300 and i felt really bad for him. ###3-12-23 i was staying with a family that took care of bugs. the mom was a scientist and maybe was treeprophet's mom? i shared a room with a young kid and we had all these cages of different bugs. i was feeling really creepy crawly but felt like i had to be cool about all the bugs. there was a HUGE tarantula in one of the cages, it was the size of a rabbit and super hairy. mal and freya were there and they were trying to get the big tarantula. the kid had to tranquilize the tarantula so it wouldn't poison mal or freya. it turned white and frozen, the kid said it could live while frozen and that was how they were shipped out to people and it was called a "tarantula steak" ###3-11-23 dreamt that treeprophet and i were at his family's Christmas in february celebration. their house was huge and full of shiny things. there was a structure, like a treehouse but attached to a very tall wooden pool in the ocean behind the house. the treehouse had really long wires you could hang on to and swing very far and they could pull you up into the treehouse and then you could jump off and swing again. treeprophet and i were doing this together. we swung far in one direction and saw land and he said "that's russia" and we landed there. we let go of the wires and then quickly grabbed them again and they pulled us back into the treehouse over the ocean. i felt kinda claustrophobic in the treehouse itself, you could only fit in it if you were laying down. ###6-15-22 my cat was staying at a different apartment than mine for some reason. I went to the apartment to get my stuff and pick her up. Someone was there and asked me for gorilla glue. I gave it to them and they started using it to glue the fringes of my crochet bag together and i yelled and told them to stop. They seemed to think the bag was theirs. I picked up mal and held her to take her outside. She was squirming and i was afraid she'd run away. ###3-1-21 my family was like the family from shameless, the tv show. my parents still looked like my parents but i had a bunch of different brothers and sisters. we lived in a big shambly house. everything was super messy and we shared bedrooms. there was a general vibe of everyone flowing in and out of the house whenever they felt. that plus the sharing everything was nice. ###1-28-21 dreamt that i told flounderer98 i was going to buy my cat a toy that released treats when you played with it and he told me that our roomate E already had one that I could have. in the waking world, i told calico that i was gonna buy that toy for my cat (I was already planning on buying one before the dream) and she told me that she has one her cat doesnt like that i can have. prophetic dream? ###1-19-21 dreamt that i was with everyone from my first elementary school class (a school i left after 4th grade) i can't recall everything that occured but i felt this weird sense that everyone was treating me as if no time had passed but i was aware that years had passed since we've seen each other. ###1-18-21 treeprophet was leaving my house and going home. he was wearing my grey pants. i asked him why he was wearing them and he said he liked them. i told him they were my favorite and he couldn't just take them and he was like "well it'll only be for a week" ###1-14-21 I was in a large building with many people who I think were all children. There was a woman there who was evil in some way...I was hiding from her and trying to save the kids. my cat, Malachi, was with me the whole time but she was part cat, part falcon. later, i was with treeprophet, E, and some other folks. we were drawing on these little piece of contact paper and putting them on this machine that converted it into a digital drawing with cool depth and stuff. then treeprophet's childhood friend C showed up. my brother J was there and he suggested we go play ghost in the graveyard. we went to this big arcade/ entertainment complex together where there were a lot of other kids. when we were done playing, we all left and so did everyone else who was in the building. My friend S was there and while we were walking out she distracted the girl working at the front so I could steal a tootsie pop but I got scared and didn't do it. some analysis: big childhood theme, i felt like i was in my 21 yr old body and my friends were their normal age but we were all kids at the same time. also, my cat has been by my side in a lot of my nightmare type dreams. she sleeps with me every night and i think my subconscious sees her as a protector ###1-8-21 had a few dreams last night. in the first one, i was caught in a loop of being forced to merge consciousnesses with this demon lady and do awful things. woke up from that with literal chills down my spine. can't remember the other ones right now